Yesterday was pretty shitty in a number of ways and it brought out the shitty in me, which was simultaneously no bueno but probably also a good reminder that checking oneself is always solid, lest one wrecks themselves.
Little reactions and bullshit nonsense rise up in everybody, and while I’ve been pretty good – I think – about maneuvering around that and really living up to who I want to be, I fall off the horse from time-to-time. Asi es. C’est la. You get the point.
Heading over to Danny’s party helped a lot, though, and I got to really think about it and reflect on the day and myself and by the time I woke up this morning I really feel like I had progressed – even just a bit. Bad days are good for that. Mistakes and bullshit are good for that, too. You can’t know light without the dark, and all that jazz – am I right?
It’s a process. One foot in front of the other. The best you can do is just go day-by-day and leave the worries by the wayside. Something I’m not particularly good at, but Lord knows I can do it if I try.
